If Tomorrow Never Comes

I have been exposed to deaths in the hospital where i work. Every death that ive witnessed always reminds me of my own. How will i die? Until when shall i live life? At 29, i guess i have enjoyed life already at its best. Im not certain about the would be length of my existence that's why i make sure to live each day of my life as if it were my last.

Attended the funeral of an aunt (my dad's elder sister) this afternoon. Her death was unexpected. I was just awakened by a call from my cousin telling me that they're in the hospital and my aunt is being resuscitated. She went into cardiac arrest. An acute myocardial infarction im thinking for she has been on maintenance medications for ischemia. Her husband has cancer with days that are counted. He's not aware of this. They did not let him know it. She kept everything to herself. She ended up going ahead of him instead.

"I love you, mom!" This line kept on ringing in my ears. Her eldest daughter said this while hugging her coffin. How many times did she repeat this. Im wondering if she told her mom this when she was still alive. I just hope she did. She deserves to hear it. She was able to raise all her seven daughters well. They're all professionals except for the youngest who's graduating this March.

What i just wanted right now is to leave a post to the people i love. I may be too busy to tell them this. I might always forget to let them feel it. Should tomorrow never come though, i just hope they know how much i love them.